love song

if you'd ask me for my heart,
there's no way that i'd say no.

you know those love songs that say
everything you want say in a sorta
cliché manner? those are my favorite
right about now.



here are some

: goot -
i love your existance

: rocket to the moon -
like we used to

: plug in stereo -
oh darling

: colbie caillat -
the little things

obituary:

i admit i had considered taking his life. he never really responded to me, and had a knack of keeping me up all night. i suppose he could have been a little sour from lack of attention. but anorexia wasn't the way i wanted him rolling over. and certainly not in a pile of his nitrogenous waste (thanks vandijk.) but, i guess it spared me the trouble.

r.i.p. trev.
i hope in heaven you actually learn to eat the food your given and you're not quite as picky.
if it weren't for my two dogs that
would have happily brought you up
from the ground, i would have loved to given you a proper burial.
but instead, the options were:
a. a nice ride in the dump truck today.
or
b. shredded up in the garbage disposal.

i'm not one for gruesome deaths, the poor guy already had to put up with me for almost a year. option a. please. i hope the walls of your confinement in fish heaven aren't 5 inches in diameter. roam free.

i get real happy when []

[i get a crisp dollar bill.]
[i discover an 'undiscovered' band.]
[i get an email from coldstone.]
[i get the perfect combination of ice and water to drink]
[i finally understand the joke]
[i unexpectedly receive chocolate]
[i look at home videos or scrapbooks]
[i act childish]
[i feel the spirit]
[i open a new pack of gum or paper]
[i get to buy people things]
[i get big hugs]
[i can sit in hot & rainy weather]
[i play card games]
[i put on my glasses to read]
[i get kids to 'bust it']
[i can smell salsa, jerky, or garlic bread]
[i remember my dreams]
[i can help]
[i learn new piano songs]
[i conquer my uncoordinated hands and catch something]
[i get my fish to respond to me]
[i put on socks straight from the dryer]
[i eat fruit snacks, roll ups, or drink juice boxes]
[i wake up from naps]
[i roast perfect marshmallows]
[i get notes in class]
[i blog about things that make me happy]
[i hear songs like these:]

he:

apple, warhawk, semco, in 'n out, piano, & coldplay, is clay ellis in a nut shell. he's a big boy now, all grown up turning 17. clayton is an inspiration to me. he's an incredible person, always optimistic. he's very intelligent and continues to teach me everyday. he's prime for encouraging awkward moments & can tell you everything you will ever need to know about the latest technological advances. he and i share the worlds most firm, solid, and perfect handshake. there's no competition. we like kneaders, and going for drives on my scooter.

clay, you're number one in my book.
happy birthday!

the pleasurable pg pool treats me well.

i have an addiction.

fifty cent, chocolate, soft serve, ice cream.
welcome to the pg pool snack bar, heaven on earth.
thanks to our snack bar girls, i usually don't go a day
without it. kudos girls, you make my world go round.

My attempts to beat my addiction have fail miserably.
Looks like I'll just have to put up with it for a little longer.. dang.

ghost adventures.

sometimes i watch it at night.
in my basement.
in the dark.
by myself.

practically begging to get scared.
issues?
yes.
but i love it.

i accidentally pressed something on the remote
and the television turned purple. i blame a ghost.
& i'm pretty sure i've never ran up my stairs so fast.
maybe i'll sleep with the lights on tonight,
and read a couple extra chapters in my scriptures.

roll the credits.

big thanks to:

danny dorius.
for helping me complete another item off
my summer bucket list & providing a
firework show from the view of a life time.

lydia andersen.
for a much needed chat regarding the boys
that keep our summer interesting.
just the start to another wonderful saturday.

matt hock & joe dorius.
for supplying the entertainment from 2 - thin.
& helping me recognize that my obsessions over
their "female folk" are a little bit creepy (:

kevin fonseca.
for kneaders this morning. when he shared the last
piece of all-you-can-eat french toast with me &
enjoying some small chat that we've missed out on.


when you think about it,
sometimes people go out
of their way to make your
day absolutely wonderful.

thanks(:

bucketlist.

01: compose a song.

02: write someone a detailed letter of how much they mean to me.

03: drive barefoot.

04: finish the Book of Mormon(fifth time around).

05: go camping - in my backyard (campfire & ghost stories included).

06: paint my room.

07: see a midnight movie - from start to finish.

08: enjoy a picnic on a roundabout at 10:13 p.m.

09: bear my testimony ten times.

10: make cookies for a complete stranger.

11: make a habit to run at 6:30 a.m.

12: eat pez on bleachers at a baseball park.

13: sing at the top of my lungs on stand.

14: go down a slide head first.

15: climb the pine trees at THE park & play night games.

16: go running at night.

17: doorbell ditch successfully (preferably black bagging)

18: beat my addiction, go with out ice cream for a week.

19: give somebody a pet fish.

20: jump in a mud puddle barefoot.

21: blog consecutively for a week.

22: make this blog public (not likely)

23: ditch the poem dryspell, and write ten more.

24: learn stick shift.

25: drive stick shift successfully.

26: play soccer every single day.

27: dance under the fireworks.

28: go snorkling, in a wet suit, down provo river.

29: purchase chacos.

30: run through sprinklers at a park.

31: give somebody a Book of Mormon.

32: sit on my roof at midnight.

33: watch a meteor shower from the mountains.

34: drive up AF canyon.

35: eat some place i've never been.

36: go to the rodeo, like a cowgirl.

37: win a thumb war against Danny Dorius.

38: see a drive-in movie.

39: pull an all nighter, no caffeine, no candy.

40: jump on Nate Porter's trampoline, just because.

41: call an old friend to say hi.

42: say "we'll do lunch," because i want to sound cool.

43: eat at Denny's at 4 a.m.

44: drink Nesquik's banana milk.

45: blow a bubble as big as i can.

46: play hopskotch with sidewalk chalk.

47: start a fire, by myself.

48: give my beenie babies to the children in primary children's hospital.

49: graffiti something, and get away with it.

50: write my name on the G, after i hike to it.

51: find a cave.

52: maybe catch a snake, if i'm not too scared.

53: summer romance.

54: get a grass stain, from rolling down a hill.

55: window paint someone's car.

56: make someone breakfast, for no reason.

the list goes on, new additions every day.

my latest achievement: #19.