Wednesday, February 22, 2012

The Best Advice.

About a month ago I was given the best advice by one of my favorite Seminary teachers. I had extra time between classes and showed up early to my 3rd period Seminary class. I got talking to him and told him about my plans for SUU, how I would room with my best friend, we'd go down to Lake Powell, St. George, and Vegas all the time. I talked about the scholarship I'm praying to have, and how everything would be paid for. My husband would be grateful when I walked into the marriage with no student loans and a career underway. Everything was set in stone. 

I thought.
He loved how I had everything planned but gave me the best advice I've ever heard.
"Be flexible," he said, "The man upstairs might have something else in store."

Here I am, maybe three or four weeks later, with zero plans. I have not finished the scholarship that could save my education - financially. I have not committed to SUU because all plans went up in the air when I got a scholarship offer from USU. Very little compared to my SUU one, but  I have this nagging feeling. So, while I have not paid my committal fee to SUU, I am taking an emergency road trip with my mom to Logan tomorrow. I will spend the majority of the day on campus figuring out financial aid, and then searching for off campus housing (much cheaper.) However. I went from having everything paid for with scholarship money, to having nothing paid for, and definitely nothing figured out.

and I love it.
Kind of.
Obviously its a little stressful, but its bringing on a new sense of independence (and flexibility) I didn't realize I had (especially with my OCD and perfectionist characteristics). I hate not having everything planned, but right now, something is pulling me to USU.

Fingers crossed I come home tomorrow afternoon with plans for my future.