its time to stop lying to myself.
we are what we swore we'd never become & it breaks my heart.
i thought i hated the arguing, the frustration, the constant tension that was between us for the last five months. but, it's almost like i miss it. all we are now, is typical. we don't look at each other. we don't talk. it's almost like our presence in each other's life is non-existent. losing a best friend with no explanation was difficult the last time. but watching something fade away and having no control over is, for lack of a better description, ten times worse.
deafened by the silence & blinded by the tears, i can only wish the best for you. thanks for everything.
so sorry. i know this feeling all too-well. and though i do know it gets easier, it is still hard now. so, i'll raise my glass to you and to every little thing there is to distract from the pain. good luck.
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