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The Best Advice.

About a month ago I was given the best advice by one of my favorite Seminary teachers. I had extra time between classes and showed up early to my 3rd period Seminary class. I got talking to him and told him about my plans for SUU, how I would room with my best friend, we'd go down to Lake Powell, St. George, and Vegas all the time. I talked about the scholarship I'm praying to have, and how everything would be paid for. My husband would be grateful when I walked into the marriage with no student loans and a career underway. Everything was set in stone. 

I thought.

He loved how I had everything planned but gave me the best advice I've ever heard.

"Be flexible," he said, "The man upstairs might have something else in store."

Here I am, maybe three or four weeks later, with zero plans. I have not finished the scholarship that could save my education - financially. I have not committed to SUU because all plans went up in the air when I got a scholarship offer from USU. Very little compared to my SUU one, but  I have this nagging feeling. So, while I have not paid my committal fee to SUU, I am taking an emergency road trip with my mom to Logan tomorrow. I will spend the majority of the day on campus figuring out financial aid, and then searching for off campus housing (much cheaper.) However. I went from having everything paid for with scholarship money, to having nothing paid for, and definitely nothing figured out.

and I love it.

Kind of.

Obviously its a little stressful, but its bringing on a new sense of independence (and flexibility) I didn't realize I had (especially with my OCD and perfectionist characteristics). I hate not having everything planned, but right now, something is pulling me to USU.

Fingers crossed I come home tomorrow afternoon with plans for my future.

Obsession.

I want to be her.
I wish my guitar strings weren't broken.
I miss playing.

I apologize.

Sorry, but I like my private blog better.
This blog is the red-headed step child.
My private blog is where I really write everything.
Freedom of speech is great, but you still get criticized for what you say.
So, in order to prevent any drama, I say everything I have to say,
where nobody else has to read it. This blog, unfortunately, is unloved,
and doesn't get nearly as much attention.

I guess, I just need somewhere to write my thoughts without being disturbed.
Why not a journal? I can't stand to look at my handwriting. It's not clear enough to read anyways.

So, I apologize that my blog is particularly boring right now. But most of the things I want to say,
probably shouldn't be said for the sake of my sanity.

from one uvhs student to another.

dear kirsten,
a word to the wise about the last semester of your senior year & bettering your college class habits:

1. don't procrastinate. really, it's the worst. & when you head down to SUU this august you can bet your habitual procrastination will be along for the ride.

2. do your own work. mom won't be there to help you write your ten page research paper at midnight, so you might as well learn to do it yourself now. (yes, that's going to mean working - really hard.)

3. recognize that this is your education. take advantage of the opportunity you have to learn. knowledge is priceless and can never be taken from you.

4. stay organized. get a planner and carry it everywhere you go. stay on top of things & be aware of the requirements for each class you are enrolled in.

5. actually attend class. (including the ones you hate.) i can guarantee that skipping isn't worth it. you only get more behind, and in the long run, won't be beneficial at all.

6. get ahead. yes - be an overachiever. turn papers and assignments in early. start projects weeks in advance, because you never know what could come up in the near future.

7. communicate with your professors. if they know you are a good student and trying to make the most out of your education, they will be willing to help you.

8. study. for at least 30 minutes each school night, review and really learn what the professor taught that day. these habits will spare you during finals week.

9. use your free time wisely. try not to sit around and watch re-runs of new girl or bones. (and you might want to ease off the facebook stalking.) maybe try working on homework.

10. have fun. but really, make sure you're enjoying it. if you're not, it's not worthwhile.

hope this semester is better than the last. & remember, only 152 days until graduation.
love, kirsten.

.s

basically the best way to explain it.

the truth is:

i'm one of those people.
i love too easily & care too much.
even the ones that hurt me.

hey mom, it's almost that time again.

remember,

the hardest part about life,

is knowing sometimes you have to give up what you want

because what you want isn't what is the best for you.

&

sometimes we don't understand why things happen;

but they do, and they will. 

just don't forget who you are along the way.

MIA: and this is why.

i was lost for a while.

in my bedroom.

i couldn't find my way out, or to my computer.

so, i took my mom's advice;

three weeks after it was given.

i cleaned my room.

listen up & listen good.

clean your room.

and keep it that way.

it might save you five hours later on.

UVU English 1010

this is what i find myself doing after spending the last three hours unproductively on a 10 page research paper that is due tomorrow. yeah, i started last night, shut up.

and no, it didn't really help.
still as unmotivated as i was ten minutes ago when i completed page four. professor fullmer, we can't all love sentence variety and a paper free of expletives + be verbs. i'm sorry.

tip #21

how to: make your day better.

tip #21

instead of attending your classes,
treat yourself to something nice.

how about five pieces of kneaders cinnamon french toast
& one of their delightful Goin' Guava smoothies?
yes, please.

marriage.

"kirsten, i can't wait to see who you marry. you know why? cause he'll have to be a God. seriously, i think about all the guys you've dated and none of them are good enough to be with you."
- Danica Newman

note to all boys who wish to date me: danica will decide.

completely necessary.

before autumn leaves us.

sadie hawkins dance

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